At the end of the college entrance examination, the night of the results, I stayed by the computer. Watching the time is up, carefully enter your own test number, click the mouse to check the results. Because of the tension, my hands were a little trembling, and I didn’t even dare to look at it with my eyes closed.
  When I took the courage to open my eyes and see the results, the taste could not be described. My heart was like blocking a big stone, and I couldn’t breathe.
  I don't know how to explain to my parents, how do I say the exit. I can even imagine their disappointing eyes, but what is the use? Whoever makes himself disappointing, I began to blame myself over and over again.
  That night, I couldn't sleep, and I couldn't sleep at night. I felt that all my efforts had been lost. It's like what you have been faithful and persistent before is gone.
  I know that I am not smart, so in order to improve my score, how many days and nights get up at four or five every day, when I am on the road, I don’t have one, and I can even see the stars in the sky. For those textbooks that don’t know how many times they have been turned over, they still don’t dare to have a slight scorn.
  At that time, although bitter, but at least there is hope in my heart, because I believe in heavenly rewards, I hope that the final result will satisfy myself, but the reality has given me a loud slap.
  When my parents saw that I was lost, I didn’t blame me. My friends came to comfort me. But it was useless. Any comfort seemed to me to be sympathy and regret in my eyes.
  Later, I accepted the reality and slowly walked out of it. Now I think that those are nothing. After all, life still has a long way to go. People can’t hold on and let go. In those days of self-redemption, you will have a better understanding of what you want.
  It is those hard days that have taught me to grow. Everyone may experience disappointment, but never despair.
  Because there are infinite possibilities tomorrow, if you block your own roads, then you are really not saved.
  A friend Xiao Xing, who likes to be a boy, is doing everything he can to him. It is a person who can see that Xiaoxing is interesting to him, but the boy has never said anything.
  Xiaoxing knows that the boy doesn't like her, but she still pays as always, only hope that the boy can see her well one day.
  The boys said that they would cooperate with a classmate for a project. Xiao Xing would give him his living expenses as a fund.
  The boy is grateful to say "Little Star, thank you, but I... I..."
  "I know what you want to say, we are friends, yes, friends, you are welcome."
  I know that after this incident, she has been swearing at her idiots, and she clearly knows that she will not open the pot and still manage others.
  I asked her, "I don't understand. You do it, is it worth it?"
  ''You are not me, how can I understand, I like him, so all this is my willingness. ''
  Yes, I am not her after all. In this relationship, there are too many people who can't control themselves. People can't control their own hearts. I am afraid that she has only paid a lot of money, and I am only a bystander.
  Until a certain day, Xiaoxing said to me disappointingly that "he has a girlfriend, but unfortunately not me."
  I don't know how to comfort her. Any language seems so pale and powerless. I can only give her a big hug and hope she can open it.
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  Later, when Xiao Xing said that he knew that he had a girlfriend, he felt that the sky would collapse.
  ''When he is single, he always feels that he still has hope, maybe he is deceiving himself, but he can also deceive himself. But he has a girlfriend, and there is no way to continue to deceive himself. It’s ridiculous. ''
  Everything has become a thing of the past, and Xiao Xing has already come out of that broken feeling. She can calmly face the once-single "one-man show".
  I can't forget the sentence she said to me, 'You are not me, how can I understand'?
  We often comfort others as friends, but we only look at the problem from the perspective of others. If you are trapped in it, you may not be as easy as you said.
  Because of the taste, only the parties know.
  I have a cousin, and I can often hear my mother mentioning him aside me, boasting that he has the ability. Because he is not highly educated, he now has several companies of his own.
  I don't often stay at home, so I don't know much about him. I just listened to my family and he mixed up very well in the field.
  When he was in the New Year last year, he went to my house. After talking to him, I learned a little more about him. He was the second son of the family. At that time, it seemed that he was due to family planning. He was a grandparent in his grandmother, so his relationship with his grandparents was very deep.
  Later, when I didn’t go to school, I went out to work hard and ate a lot of pains. I thought that one day I could give my family a better life. As a result, his career has just improved, and my grandfather has passed away. That incident has dealt a big blow to him.
  On the day when my grandfather went out, my cousin spent a whole day at the grave of the grandfather. He didn’t eat or drink, and he couldn’t pull up until he fainted to the ground.
  No one knows how much he hates his own powerlessness, and regrets not spending much time with his old man. What people are most afraid of is "the child wants to raise and the family is not there."
  Cousin is a businessman, can speak, and is slick, but this is the pain in his heart forever. When I mentioned it, I couldn’t help but want to cry.
  Later, he hid this matter in his heart and continued to work hard because he knew that this would give his grandfather peace of mind.
  In the eyes of outsiders, the cousin’s career is successful and the spring breeze is proud. But who knows what he has experienced, the wines that can't be dealt with, the wines hurt, the most hard years, the cousin still lived in hospital because of stomach problems, and since then, he has known that the body is the capital of the revolution. .
  In those low days, he once thought about giving up, but he insisted on sticking his teeth. It was those who insisted that they made themselves.
  What you see may be only a small part of the life of others. Maybe you see a person who is bright and beautiful, talking and laughing, but who knows what is behind him.
  Sometimes people pretend to be strong , but behind them are wounds one after another. He may be crusted on the surface. If you don't see it, it doesn't mean it doesn't exist.
  Any time, as long as you encounter it, it will still hurt, but it can only be cured by yourself.
  We are all the protagonists in our own world. What others have really experienced, we don’t know, there is no real empathy in this world, and we don’t want to evaluate other people’s values.
  Life is like drinking water, knowing how to be cold and warm. In addition to self-transfer, others can't help.