I am writing this topic, I am already sitting in the 12th floor of an incubator startup factory in Shenzhen , and I am engaged in my favorite work.
  Eight years ago, I graduated from a second-tier city in second-tier cities. Many students took the exam, many of them went abroad, and many of them went to the units that were very embarrassing in the north. And I went home silently. In the third-tier city of my hometown, I became a clerk with a monthly salary of only 3,000 yuan.
  The clerk's work is really not technical. The home is very comfortable, my home is 20 minutes walk from work, 5 minutes by bike. After work, before work, my mother's delicious food is waiting for me. We also discuss what to do with fresh food, and go to the nearby mountains to climb mountains, hot springs, and wild donkeys. I don’t know what anxiety is.
  When I was working for about eight months, I suddenly panicked, my heartbeat often speeded up, and I couldn’t breathe. At first, I thought it was spring, the weather was warmer, some were not adapted, and then it became more and more serious and lost weight.
  My parents took me to the doctor and the diagnosis proved to be mild anxiety. The doctor said that nothing should be done, nothing, this is the most suitable state for people to struggle.
  The doctor's words are correct. I can't hide my anxiety about the future. The work of the clerk has made me comfortable for too long. Friends share their lives from everyone, and those words and pictures make me anxious. People who go abroad, travel everywhere, share interesting things from abroad, and express their feelings of growing knowledge; those who study, start to dry books, write about the lectures of famous teachers; the workplaces shared by students living in big cities , for me It is completely another world. I know that at the best age they are growing up in madness. And I am far behind by them.
  Work calmly and reluctantly. The more profound reason is that I have no capital to resign. After reading countless chicken soups, I chose to read and write, and I wanted to go farther on the road of words.
  In the next two years, I went to work at 12 o'clock every day after work, sometimes until 3 in the morning. This period is the time of my knowledge explosion, and it is also the time for enrichment and anxiety. I have read a lot of books on literature, sociology, psychology, history, etc., and even read books when I am not busy at work. My leadership is very good. I am allowed to read books when I am not busy at work. If he has time, he will also point me to study. I have not calculated the number of books I have read, probably between 150 and 200. This kind of reading is not big, but for me, who has a basic qualification, it opens a magical door.
  I can't find the experience and mood to share with others. I know that in the third-tier cities, there are not so many offline activities like the city reading club. I started to write.
  When I took the 20 articles I wrote to a cousin who had read creative writing, he greatly appreciated my work and even said that I had the potential to be a screenwriter.
  screenwriter? My eyes are bright, there is no one around me who is engaged in this kind of profession, and there are many people watching TV dramas.
Encouraged by my   cousin , I floated up, thinking that one foot has entered the editing pool, dreaming of one day becoming Li An, Wang Jiawei, maybe one can make a name in the film circle.
  I took the work to my classmates and showed the ingredients. My friend wrote a full comment on my work. I was very angry at the time, and soon I broke up with my friends. Now think about how naive, impulsive, and "Secondary" your actions are. The evaluation that my friend gave me is very objective. My work can't be called a work, and it is no different from a middle school student's composition. Grammatically, the mistakes are dense; the words are either lacking, or they are artificially piled up to create inappropriate vocabulary; the entire article can't be guaranteed, the fluency can't be guaranteed, the logical words are almost no, the jump is faster than the rabbit, and he needs his own brain. No number added.
  When Fu Lei gave Zhang Ailing a written opinion, Zhang Ailing was in her early twenties, and she could not accept criticism, even if those criticism suggestions were kind and pertinent. Zhang Ailing immediately wrote a novel satirical Fu Lei, the novel is "Yin Baozhen sent flowers to the House", in March 2013, Zhang Ailing's inheritor Song Yilang was told in the article "Southern Metropolis Daily". The actor of "Yin Baozhen Sending Flower House", the prototype of the neurotic music professor, is a famous translator critic Fu Lei.
  I also wrote an article at the time, satirizing my good-hearted classmate and tearing it away after I finished writing. The content written did not remember, and the emotions at that time still remembered. Time has passed, and now I think of myself at that time, my heart is so "dark."
  I am not discouraged and continue to write. If the material is not enough, you will start from the people around you. I "interviewed" aunt, aunt, aunt, aunt, aunt, my dad, my mother, cousin, cousin, high school classmate, elementary school classmate... During that time, I met relatives and friends, even acquaintances. The two eyes are shining, as if to see gold. I put their stories into novels and essays.
  After three days of such a day, I wrote a lot of essays and short stories, as well as three novels. With these manuscripts, I kept submitting the manuscripts, from the initial sinking to the sea, all the way to fail, to the later spokes, and then someone came to me to draft. My self-confidence heart soars, accumulated some experience writing, my mind began to pop out a new idea - become a screenwriter.
  I first talked to my cousin. Because of the limitations of education and vision, I am very inferior. I don't know how much darkness there is in the road ahead. My cousin encouraged me to be bold when I had a dream.
  I talked to my parents about the idea of ​​becoming a screenwriter. My parents didn't agree at first, but I didn't want to, but I agreed to quit and go out. Before resigning, my work was approved by a small animation company and was based in Shenzhen. The manager asked me to give it a try.
  In this way, I went to Shenzhen. When we arrived in Shenzhen, everything was so fresh, and an innovative, open air came to the fore. I rented a house near the company and spent one-fifth of my salary, just to get on the job and not to squeeze the subway, save time for work or study, and improve myself.
  I started to work hard. Colleagues are very young, but they are very good. There are 985 masters of returnees and famous schools everywhere. I learn from them inferiority.
  Perhaps in the third-tier city of my hometown, I have been self-disciplined for four and a half years. The high-intensity work in Shenzhen not only did not give me pressure, but opened my internal organs, as if there was a ladder leading to the sky. The docking of the sky, my body is in an open position. My inspiration is constant, and my creativity is beginning to be recognized by my boss and colleagues.
  Two years ago, the script I created with my colleagues was taken by investors.
  Do what you like, and my life is exceptionally smooth.
  My experience is very ordinary, but I have been back home for 5 years when I have not been good enough. In the past five years, I have accumulated the skills of killing in big cities. I have accumulated the habit of self-discipline. I have accumulated a strong heart in the darkness walking alone on the road. Although there are no houses and cars in Shenzhen, I am not worried about the future.
  My classmates have returned from abroad and are looking for work in various cities. The students who graduated from the study began to work hard in the workplace to find their own social coordinates. Most of the students who used to work in the first-tier cities returned to their hometowns. Has become the middle leader of the company.
  From the third line to the first line, from the first line to the third line, some people come and some people go. In fact, do what you like, fit, and wherever you are.